Well hello there! I’m BAAAAAAACK and I know what you’re thinking it’s been awhile. Where were you? But what can I say life is…… COMPLICATED!
I recently celebrated my birthday and I have a lot to be thankful for. It has been such a blessing to live to see another birthday because when I think about what I was doing last year for my birthday and how much my life has changed since then I can truly say that I’m blessed! I’ve been doing a lot of reflecting over the last few months and I feel like I was at a point where I didn’t want to continue to blog. I’ve recently decided to give it another shot but first let me catch you up on a few happenings which took place since my last blog post.
In May 2017, I celebrated the union of my best friend, Aisha and her homie lover friend, Ramani.
I visited the 9/11 Memorial museum in New York City which left me feeling somber.
I stopped by the Smithsonian Museum of African-American History and Culture in Washington, DC which was overwhelmingly magnificent!
I took a road trip to my alma mater, Baylor University which looks completely different from the school I attended 15 years ago!
And last but not least, I found out I was PREGNANT!!!
Are you as surprised as I was? If you know me, I’m sure you are. As you’re trying to digest this information let me take a moment to be transparent with you. I am a Thirty something year old, Single Caribbean American female who was at a point in her life where I thought I would be ok if I didn’t have children because I was enjoying my life to the fullest. And like so many other women I know, I wanted to be married to my soul mate first and then have children. Well, it didn’t happen that way.
To be very candid, let’s just say I made a poor decision while “casually dating” a guy and realized I had unexpectedly become pregnant. And if I want to completely live in my truth, I was not excited about this news when I first found out. I was in denial and questioned if I was ready to have a child because I’m focused on purchasing my first house and thinking about where I wanted to travel to next.
After prayer and contemplation, I decided that this pregnancy was a blessing and I may not get this chance again. Also, a child doesn’t have to deter me from moving forward with my goals. So as of today, I am 17 weeks pregnant and nervous as hell about being a MOM. I’ve shared the news with family and friends and each of them were shocked but still very encouraging except one.
Every day I ask myself, “Am I doing the right thing because this is unchartered territory for me?” But when I think about all of the possibilities in store for this little life growing inside of me all fear and doubt escape me and joy fills my heart. Ultimately, I know that God makes no mistakes and he will never leave me nor forsake me.
So with that said please have a drink (preferably a glass of wine) for me to celebrate this new bundle of joy and I promise not to bombard my social media pages with annoying pregnancy talk about sweet pea aka peanut aka pumpkin aka the little bambino aka butterball. Until next time….